This memorial website was created in the memory of our son, Joshuah Daniel Neubauer who was born on October 13, 2000 and entered Heaven's gates December 8, 2000.  We will remember him forever.

 Christmas Without You


The lights are blinking merrily
The tinsel’s on the tree
It sits there in the window
For all the world to see.

The house is filled with holly
And pinecone scents the air
The Christmas cards keep coming
Each one is hung with care.

The gifts are tied with ribbons red
And topped with pretty bows
I’m done with all the details
As far as Christmas goes.

The fire is softly glowing
I think about your touch
But Christmas isn’t Christmas
I miss you oh, so much.

If I could have just anything
My Christmas wish would be
To wake up in the morning
And find you here with me.

Staring at your picture
I long to be set free
Tonight the tears are streaming
As I hold it next to me.

Flakes of snow swirl through the air
I’m braced for stormy weather
I wait for brighter days ahead
When we can be together.

So hold a place in heaven
Someday when life is through
I’ll be with our Christmas angel
And share the day with you.

A Pair of Shoes

I am wearing a pair of shoes. They are ugly shoes. Uncomfortable shoes. I hate my shoes. Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair. Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step. Yet, I continue to wear them. I get funny looks wearing these shoes. They are looks of sympathy. I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs. They never talk about my shoes. To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable. To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them. But, once you put them on, you can never take them off. I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes. There are many pairs in this world. Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them. Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much. Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt. No woman deserves to wear these shoes. Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman. These shoes have given me the strength to face anything. They have made me who I am. I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
--Author unknown

This month came back with great regret,
It brings a day we will never forget.

You fell asleep without a goodbye,
But your memories will never die.

We miss you more than anyone knows,
As each day passes, our emptiness grows.

The tears we shed will wipe away,
But the ache in our hearts will always stay.

No one knows the grief we bear,
When our family meets, and you’re not there.

You left so suddenly, your thoughts unknown,
But you left us memories we are proud to own.

My Christmas Prayer
By Barbara Warren

For those of us who face the season
With heavy hearts, for whatever reason.

For those of us who don't feel joy
When seeing shiny children's toys,

For those of us with no twinkling lights,
To brighten all our Christmas nights,

For those of us who lack holiday cheer--
Pray let us open our eyes and ears,

To understand, to see and hear it,
The real story of the Christmas spirit:

That Christ did come on Christmas Day
To pave the road and lead the way,

To prove His love and show He cared,
To promise of a Heaven shared
By those of us who see the light,
And welcome Christ on Christmas night.

Remembering You
Kaye De'Ormeaux © 2002

Every year that passes by,
We remember you.
And every tear that we cry,
Helps us get through.

You left us down here.
Oh why did you go?
We miss you so much.
Oh more that you can know.

Today is a day set aside
To especially remember you.
Oh look down on us with pride,
And do what you can do.

Yes, we remember you, precious one.
But not just for today.
We remember you every moment …
Since you went away.

Yes, ever year that passes by,
We need help to get through.
For with every tear that we cry …
We’re remembering you.

Hugs,
Kaye Des’Ormeaux

 I Will Carry You

Angie Smith

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?


People say that I am brave, but I'm not truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this


So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says...


I've shown his photographs of time beginning
Walked him through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love him like this?


I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen Me
To carry you

Laying there on the floor unaware of what's to come
That soon God would open his doors
And welcome you to his kingdom
If I could see you one last time
Laying there on the floor
I’d pick you up and hold you once more
I’d tell you that I love you
And that I’d miss you bunches
But til the day arrives
When I will see you with my eyes
And hold you again
I’ll hold you where you’ve always been and that is in my heart.


Megan Lamont

 My Sweet Boy …

I remember the day that I first learned of you
I quickly noted of when you'd be due
I was nervous and scared - could this really be?
When years come to pass, what would you think of me
The next nine months were all but a rush
Your brand new life was in my hands to trust

You would look at me with such innocent eyes
Now, only my memories hold the sound of your sighs
Your life here on earth was so short, but sweet
Not an enemy or danger you will ever meet

I pray at night that it was nothing I did
That took your life---they called it SIDS
It is hard to accept and just stand by
The questions I have of HOW and WHY?
For every day that passes, my heart aches
Reluctant I am… a new life I must make

So now that you play in Heaven above
Please remember your mommy's eternal love
Remember my kisses, I'll see you again
I'll love you forever, my sweet boy.


 

Balloons
By Candy Roe

They rise up in a loud whisper to greet the sky
And everyone looks who passes by.
They are unaware
Of the hope, dreams, love, and despair
That are held within each balloon floating here in the air.
They go drifting right along catching your eye
And those bright colors how they dress up the sky.
They float about freely with gentleness and ease
Up and down they move catching the breeze.
It's an overwhelming sight to see those colorful balloons
Filled with our hopes and dreams are¦
Especially for me.









As we cling to the dreams we had for our precious Joshuah - dreams like those of any new parent - we also cherish the memories of our brief time together, knowing they must now fill a lifetime. We will forever be grateful for your support and understanding as we move forward - always loving, never forgetting. 






Please feel free to write a tribute or light a candle! 
It would mean so much to us to know that you were here.



LINKS
http://www.sidsfamilies.com
http://www.irisremembers.com
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